emptying into the empty stream

i am working for an organization that deals with people with developmental disabilities/mental retardation. i feel very bad using the phrase “mental retardation” but that’s the official terminology they use. am i even allowed to use the R word, tho? i’d been two months into this new city, not able to find [...]

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falling thru cracks?

i’ve been sleeping in a tent on concrete in someone’s very tiny “backyard” (dead grass, place to put trash cans) since oct 1st. i can be here til oct 10th, and then i have no idea where i’m going to go after that.
the circumstances by which the last job ended had the potential to [...]

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it would’ve been a good weekend to feel like a normal human being

it should’ve been a good weekend. it was my birthday, sunday. middle of last week i’d gotten a good sublet back in san francisco, a friend rescued me from the depressing west oakland wasteland i’d been trapped in the previous 2 months. money is starting to come together. job stuff could’ve [...]

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party downstairs. me upstairs, at my computer. oh, the division.

i am at home… well, at my current sublet. it is friday, 11:23pm. the current sublet is a big artist warehouse in oakland, and right now there is a raging party going on within the lower level, ton of people, good music, live bands playing, even a lot of good-looking queer women. [...]

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maybe you should stop being so f*cking weird

monday at work, and i was out front having a smoke. i’m good at what i do, but the social stuff i’m not so good at. last year, i used to go out after work with this group of peeps, in my department and others on my floor, mostly in their 20s, good [...]

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how to get emergency psychiatric medication in san francisco, if you have insurance

there may be various ways, but this is the way i went about it.
i called westside crisis, to see about an intake session. they told me that they couldn’t see me, as i am insured, and that i either needed to contact my doctor or regular psychiatrist. i told her that i [...]

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It might be good, as I have instructed others, to pretend I am a robot, slightly tragic, but one nonetheless.

i have somebody else at my job to train. she started on monday. several times she’s bounced over happily to my cube, interrupting me, standing there looking for a reaction, and i’ve just stared at her.
for instance, just a few minutes ago i was deeply involved in coding my site, phpmyadmin issues, and [...]

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about asperger’s syndrome, in plain english

i was having a harder time than normal functioning on saturday, and hung out with a friend despite this fact. having a hard time navigating in my head choices regarding what to do, planning, i was breaking down, cuz i was really tired. we had a bit of an impasse resulting from this, [...]

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